Whether you call it gut instinct, intuition or self-trust, before I hit my forties I certainly didn’t have much of it. In fact I regularly handed my own judgement over to psychics and paid them for the privilege of telling me what I should do and what my future looked like.
This didn’t always end well. In my early twenties, a psychic who’d been hired to entertain guests at a work party told me my long-distance and rather tempestuous relationship with my then boyfriend was ‘absolutely lovely’. On the strength of this, I decided to leave my fantastic job, friends and family to accept his invitation to move to Dublin when I’d previously been hesitant. I see now howspectacularly stupid this was, but I guess your early twenties are what impetuous decision making is for. Anyway, the people, countryside and pubs were awesome.
Now 46, I’d now consider myself more spiritual than ever before, but if I need guidance, I tend to trust myself rather than outsourcing my wisdom tosomeone else. Despite this, I gave into temptation on Sunday and ended up seeing a psychic at a health and healing festival.
The process of seeing a psychic is always great fun - I love the anticipation of whether they’re going to hit the nail on the head with something they couldn’t possibly have known. Some of the things I heard on Sunday gave me a real boost and really did resonate, but I won’t be changing anything major in my life on the strength of them just yet. I mean, if we reacted to the many external signs that make themselves known around us we'd ping pong from one life change to another (hello Dublin!). But I firmly believe that when something we hear or see really resonates with us, it’s a reflection of what we already know deep inside. This happens to me constantly when I see the same repeating numbers, something I appreciate my readers may find a little outlandish, but which I find hugely uplifting and reassuring having done some research about their meaning.
The conversation on Sunday was exciting because it really did validate myvision for the future. But I guess that’s the point: I already know what I want my future to look like. I also know no one is responsible for making it happen but me.
So while I love and am fascinated by crystals, reiki, tarot, angel numbers and all the other wonderful stuff we associate with the spiritual realm, I reckon spirituality’s actually pretty simple. It’s basically being connected to our true, inner selves. It’s a feeling of knowing, of self-trust, and of ‘rightness’. That’s where the real magic is.
But I did take the psychic’s business card. Just in case…